I Need to Vent (just a little)
I'm going to be very vague. If you know me, you may know what I'm talking about, if not then it's alright just follow. I need to vent...
Earlier this week: I was blankly starting at a door as I stood in this beautiful place. The weather was perfect and I was surrounded by beautiful people. It seemed unreal, almost like a dream but also a bit like a nightmare. I carried on with my day, at the same place, and tried to do things right. I didn't want to mess up. However as the day slowly continued, the same five words kept going through my mind: "So it's come to this?" And every time I'd think that, I'd laugh. I don't belong here, I don't know if it's worth my time. It's not my thing but luckily I can fake being good at it.
I'm sure I can be honest here, but I don't wanna risk it, you know? I need to embrace change. Whether it's a new set of friends, a new job, or even a new place to live. I was told earlier this week that I'm not the type of person that enjoys changes, in fact, I fear them. She wasn't wrong, I do fear change. So what do I gotta think about when I'm at this spot? How can I keep being motivated? How can you?
Well first thing's first...if I don't embrace change then nothing happens, and if nothing happens then I don't achieve my dreams. Every day there's no change is a day you're stuck in a reality you don't like living.
Stay positive friends, success is being able to go through from one failure to the next.
The Last Female On Earth
As strange as it may, or may not, sound I always think about what would happen if I was the last woman on Earth? I mean sure, I'd get action but I feel like death would come soon after. What would happen? I'd feel obligated to get pregnant and re-populate. But then I'd have to get pregnant at least a few times. And hopefully I'd give birth to girls and girls only. I feel like the world would go wild without women, but if I were surrounded by smart men, I'd feel like they'd keep me somewhere safe.
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