I Need to Vent (just a little)

terrible weather at work

I'm going to be very vague. If you know me, you may know what I'm talking about, if not then it's alright just follow. I need to vent...

Earlier this week: I was blankly starting at a door as I stood in this beautiful place. The weather was perfect and I was surrounded by beautiful people. It seemed unreal, almost like a dream but also a bit like a nightmare. I carried on with my day, at the same place, and tried to do things right. I didn't want to mess up. However as the day slowly continued, the same five words kept going through my mind: "So it's come to this?" And every time I'd think that, I'd laugh. I don't belong here, I don't know if it's worth my time. It's not my thing but luckily I can fake being good at it.

I'm sure I can be honest here, but I don't wanna risk it, you know? I need to embrace change. Whether it's a new set of friends, a new job, or even a new place to live. I was told earlier this week that I'm not the type of person that enjoys changes, in fact, I fear them. She wasn't wrong, I do fear change. So what do I gotta think about when I'm at this spot? How can I keep being motivated? How can you? 

Well first thing's first...if I don't embrace change then nothing happens, and if nothing happens then I don't achieve my dreams. Every day there's no change is a day you're stuck in a reality you don't like living.

Stay positive friends, success is being able to go through from one failure to the next.

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